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"Being a full-time mother is one of the highest salaried jobs in my field, since the payment is pure love. " ~Mildred B. Vermont Having time for myself doing the normal things I usually do would be next to impossible. Just like what they said..once you're a mother "normal" is history. Uninterrupted sleep, a long bath and having a long chitchat alone with my husband is a luxury...I may be in my pajamas all day long, messy hair and clothes... and looking fresh and clean would always be an effort for me, I could either be covered with milk spits or drools but I've never been happier! One smile from my little angel would make all the hard part meaningful. I am so blessed He is the reason why I look forward to each day! Waking up with little boy next to me, wide-eyed staring, and smiling every time he wakes ups it really is something to look forward too..... Now I know and understand how my mom feels about me and my siblings. I feel so blessed and loved that

VS A few friends of mine knows that I have a job offer to work in a hotel in Canada. Its a 2yrs contract and because of that I've decided to get married first. I was about to leave March 22 2007 with my cousin and my Kuya, but it never happened because of my unplanned pregnancy. The news about my pregnancy brought pain and suffering to the ones i love at first... because they are relying on me but God's plans are better the the plans we have for ourselves. Delivering a premature baby is another trial for me and my family, both emotionally and financially, thats one reason why I have rejected for the second time around the offer for me to leave this coming September 29, 2007 bound to Alberta Canada. I know my son struggles to fight for his life during those 2 months he was at the hospital that is why its even harder for me to leave him at an early stages on his life. I know my son needs me more than anyone right now.. so for now goodbye Canada.. I know Canada will always be the

Cutting my baby's finger nail... I tried it, I am so stupid I almost cut the skin on his tiny finger.. I will never do that again, I'll let his lolie cut his finger nails for him

"Somebody said it takes about six weeks to get back to normal after you've had a baby... that somebody doesn't know that once you're a mother, "normal" is history. " Being a mom is more than just stretchmarks and losing your pregnancy weight. It's far more than that. I guess its true that whenever a new baby is born, a new parent's born. August 13, 2007 was the big day because it was the day I get to take my baby home with me after 2 months of going back and forth to the hospital just to visit him. He is still small for his age but I convinced the pediatrician that I can take care of the baby already. With all effort and will power I did. Its true when they say "pag me baby puyatan.." and I've experience that first hand. I'm a hands-on mom to Corby now with the guidance of my mother of course. I never realize that being a mother is such a great task and you'll need to sacrifice a lot of things but at the same time the feeli

Haven't write on this blog for sometime. I just wanted to share some blessings I've had these past few weeks. I know it has been sometime that I didn't write anything special on this blog. Today is my son's 2nd month birthday. On the contrary today is the month I would be expecting him to arrive. But due to some circumstances beyond my control, he was born 2 months earlier than expected. We've been through alot lately. I would say we were down and out because of the unexpected delivery of my baby who was born last June 9, 2007 via ceasarian section, due to some complications on my pregnancy.. I was diagnose to be preeclamptic. Alot of my friends wonder what had happened to me these past few month, others know about it, some of them does have an idea, but still clueless. Others thought I am in Canada already. I guess that was the original plan.. however a few people know I was married last December 11, 2006. I've decided to get married before going abroad since I

Two men, both seriously ill, occupied the same hospital room. One man was allowed to sit up in his bed for an hour each afternoon to help drain the fluid from his lungs. His bed was next to the room's only window. The other man had to spend all his time flat on his back. The men talked for hours on end. They spoke of their wives and families, their homes, their jobs, their involvement in the military service where they had been on vacation. Every afternoon when the man in the bed by the window could sit up he would pass the time by describing to his roommate all the things he could see outside the window. The man in the other bed began to live for those one hour periods where his life would be broadened and enlivened by all the activity and color of the world outside. The window overlooked a park with a lovely lake. Ducks and swans played on the water while children sailed their model boats. Young lovers walked arm in arm amidst flowers of every color of the rainbow. Grand old tree

love, sweet love. I guess its normal for couples to argue and fight, for me it makes both of you show your true selves more, and adjust to each other more. hal and i have been together for 6 years now and i think we're the funniest, oddest arguers around. you could say that we have perfected the art of arguing. we often fought about "kababawan issues". all because of a text i sent that he didn't receive cause his phone wasn't on. obviously, it was no ones fault, but still, we fought about it over the phone as if there was really something to fight about! About tortang talong, about that things he said that he cannot remember saying...About susi and so much more things which is really none sense, and when we think about it we laugh about it... its so odd that sometimes we just argue with each other to vent out frustrations on other things, then we fix it. most of the time, when we argue one of us will say sorry to the other and susuyuin ang isat isa.... minsan sya

I have watched Pirates of the Caribbean 1 and 2 and I have enjoyed so when I heard about the third part I can't wait but watch it. I enjoyed the first one a lot and the second one a little bit. As for the third one, I thought it was a bit boring since it is longer and a bit cheesy. It definitely had its funny moments because of the classic "Capt. Jack Sparrow". But I like interaction between Jack and Will at the first two movies, which I didn't see much on this movie. I also liked the action and the sword fighting, but it got repetitive after a while. The multiple Jack Sparrow - it was funny (at times) but it is a weird comedy. The wedding scene was too cheesy for me with all those fight scenes while taking a vow of matrimony. But when I saw Will and Elizabeth's fate, I kind of accepted that they had to put that scene in at that time. I loved the first 2 movies but I have to say that the 3rd had a little too much going on. I was little disappointed in th

Sitting in front of my pc, doing nothing, browsing friendster and multiply, updating myself about my friends way back, seeing their children, seeing them married, seeing them pregnant, others are already out of the country, while some are still living in the beautiful island of the Philippines...a third-world country with lots of happy people living contentedly... Philippines....I'm going home this june 11 going back to pinas.. I don't know if I will be happy or be sad about it....I'm a bit happy coz I really do miss pinas, the weather the people and most specially the FOOD!!! But at the same time I am sad that I have to go home, this would only mean that me and my hubby will be separated after 4 months of being together... I don't have a choice do I?? As much as I wanted to stay I can't because I need to give birth in the Philippines for it is so much expensive here... Grabe ang lungkot, I can't bear the pain na maghihiwalay nanaman kami.... it feels like nasug

During the time I was growing up, I don't really have a "kababata" I guess I've got neighbors but I seldom play with them for I rarely go out, so I only have friends at school and my so called "kababata".... my cousins....our age gap ranges from 1 to 2 years. The eldest is ate Abby, next is ate Kari ( before its karen) then ate Pia, me and our youngest that time... Twinkle. Ate Abby and ate Pia are the reserved ones lalo na si te Abby, she could pass for an audition to be a drama princess that time, sa sobrang babaw ng luha nya, its easy for her to break into tears. Ate Kari at ako ang mga harungas... or magugulo, in a sense that we are the boyish among them, our trips are a bit different than that of my other two cousins I've mentioned. Twinkle is the flexible one, she can either go with us or with te abby's kung sa teks ang tawag sa kanya ay "panabla" to make it balance.They are the ones I called my "kababata". Magkakapatid ang

i fight, i cried, i lived, i loved, i lost ive moved on... seasons come and go.. day hastens by.... sun will set but it will still rise.. life ain't easy...that's the beauty of it.... things are not always what you want them to be.... if it does then it gets boring..tough times will come your way...what matters is you've learned along the way... hurt, and sorrow makes people a better person... no one lives forever and nothing is permanent in this world except change....

Out of boredom, I tried to check out some oldies but goodies photos... it brings back the memories I've had with my friends.. been missing them.. seabreeze getaway with the elite-prodigy HelloCorp peepz.. MSN TEK- almost goodbye na CONVERGYS WAVE 6 CVG Operations: SBS Yahoo almost end of shift whapak reunion at tiendesitas my college buddies our trip to Laiya batangas.. Training- wave 1b of siemens (toshiba) Wave 1- SIEMENS Christmas party with my two best buds @ jhongs wedding

I've checked my mail and decided to sign in to my yahoo messenger, I've had some offline messages from friends and relatives.. what really caught my attention is the news coming from my ate pia.. she's pregnant already 4 weeks!! what a great news for her I know she's really excited about it.. another blessing from the Lord after a very solemn and beautiful wedding ceremony last month now another news about pregnancy.. I guess its really easy for us to get preggy.. its on our genes... Time flies...before when I'm talking to my cousins which is also my "kababata" we often talked about school topics, classmates, side comments about our buting neighbors and some kiddie stuff, but right now all we can talk about is family, problems and alot more serious things.. I really miss being a kid... its less complicated.. Right now im here in my room same old boring day waiting for my housemates to arrive and for my hubby too.. im such a bummer... I'm not used to no

Same old boring day here at singapore.... I do some laundry and tried uploading photos on my picture trail...I am unable to completely jot down all the details of what's happening in my life on this blog...I can't say I am a new blogger, I've started creating this online thingy way back 2003 but it really bores me to write everything I 've experienced so I use blogs just to think out loud about my thoughts, how I feel and what I really wanted to say so I would say that would mean I seldom post entries, I have a 360, a friendster blog and multiply and now this one.. I don't know what has gotten into me but since I become a bummer I don't know how to spend my leisure time so I tried creating another blog of my own, this blog I have here has the same entries I have from friendster and multiply and 360 but I don't usually update all of them. Anyways enough of that, I know it bores you to read stuff like this. What I am feeling right now, I can't explain. One

Theres no more waiting Holding out for love You are my godsend That I have been forever dreaming of My angel from above Heaven knows Im head over heels and it shows Ive played every field I suppose But theres something about you When you're around Baby I have found I get lost in you What is this feeling Ive never known before That I should touch you Swearing to surrender ever more Thats what I came here for Heaven knows Im head over heels and it shows Ive played every field I suppose But theres something about you When you're around Baby I have found I get lost in a wonderful daze Lost in your wonderful ways Heaven knows When you're around Baby I have found I get lost Heaven knows Im head over heels and it shows Ive played every field I suppose But theres something about you When you're around Baby I have found I get lost in you

I visited my friendster yesterday and I saw a scanned picture of me and my cousins the last time we've had our out of town summer getaway... I kinda reminisce the days back then.. it was so simple.. yet fun... Iba talaga pag tumatanda na.. life gets complicated... dati naiisip lang namin is paano magpaalam ke mama leng pag punta sa mall at mag plano na magswimming sa character hehehe.. big time na kami ng makalabas kami sa tulong ni papa yoy at ate heidi at nkapunta kme sa pililia.. last time kasama si te kari dito pro sa pic na to wala sya.. . Grabe time flies so fast.. I wish I could turn it back para back to teens and childhood days ulet kami...less problems... more fun...but of course everyone has to grow up and live life... I'm so glad that I've enjoyed those times when I was still a kid because I will never be able to go back to that same day again.. at least I've had the memories with me.. bitter sweet memories of my childhood years...

I can not promise you that I will not change I can not promise you that I will not have many different moods I cannot promise you that I will not hurt your feelings sometimes I can not promise you that I will not be erratic I can not promise you that I will always be strong I can not promise you that my faults will not showBut -I do promise you that I will always be supportive of you I do promise you that I will share all my thoughts and feelings with you I do promise you that I will give you freedom to be yourself I do promise you that I will understand everything that you do I do promise you that I will be completely honest with you I do promise you that I will laugh and cry with you I do promise you that I will help you achieve all your goals But - most of all I do promise you that I will care for you excerpts from my 360.. for my hal..

Most of the time.. we've questioned God... WHY?? Lord why do I have to feel this pain? Lord why does it always have to be that bad? Lord why do I feel so alone? Why did it happen to me? Why?? I know I don't have the right to question the Lord about the things happening in my life, He is omniscient the all-knowing God, that is why we can't help but ask Why????... People always say "all things happens for a reason ..." we've heard of that several times already but what is the reason?? Is that reason of fate? a reason of one's destiny ??Or God's reason for your life? I am a firm believer that all things fall to it's places... it happens for a reason. But because of the past experiences I have encounter, I realize that it could'nt be of fate or destiny... Yes... God has His plans for everyone, He knows what would happen in your life even before you where born. We know we're fully in control of our own lives, because God gave us "free will&

Sometimes it seems God is not hearing our prayers...or slow in answering them ..We have to remember that God's timetable is not same as our timetable..He has his own calendarHe sees things differently than what we see, He knows better than us..for He knows everything...If you think God seems to be running late.. don't get impatient and run ahead of HImWait for the Lord's timing in everything...being impatient will get you nowhere... In His time he does everything perfectly for us....just put your Trust in God.. The Lord has plans for my life.. but he allowed me to make mistakes to learn from them.. for me to be strong..and to continue to hold on to Him

excerpts from my friendster blog dated march 6, 2007 Sometimes we do things we think is right.. but later on realizes that the outcome of our action could hurt the person we love the most.. our family...too bad we cannot turn back the time.. but I am still hoping that time would heal all wounds no matter how deep it may be.. I know I don't have the right to question God's purpose for me... I just cannot understand why He allows some things to happen … even though He knows my thoughts and heart's desire...I know it's the result of my weak decision.. if there is to blame that would only be me.. I am hurting right now.. it hurts to know that you are the reason why the person you love is experiencing too much pain. I've made plans and set some goals for my future but then something came up and it changes everything for me....some thing big... it hits me hard...that I almost fell on the ground..all the more I think about it the more it hurts me.. I love my family a whole