Untitled....... thoughts

Same old boring day here at singapore.... I do some laundry and tried uploading photos on my picture trail...I am unable to completely jot down all the details of what's happening in my life on this blog...I can't say I am a new blogger, I've started creating this online thingy way back 2003 but it really bores me to write everything I 've experienced so I use blogs just to think out loud about my thoughts, how I feel and what I really wanted to say so I would say that would mean I seldom post entries, I have a 360, a friendster blog and multiply and now this one.. I don't know what has gotten into me but since I become a bummer I don't know how to spend my leisure time so I tried creating another blog of my own, this blog I have here has the same entries I have from friendster and multiply and 360 but I don't usually update all of them. Anyways enough of that, I know it bores you to read stuff like this.

What I am feeling right now, I can't explain. One thing's for sure I'm gonna be lonely again come june 19. These past few months of my life I would say is full of sugar and spices...a lot of things happened, things that changes a life, a relationship and a goal. I can't specify it right now but after all those things I would say I've been very much happy and contented this past 3 months.. I wanted it to stay this way but I can't... I guess you really cannot have it all but at least I've enjoyed my stay with my hubby even for a short period of time.... I know I'm gonna miss everything I have... I'm still thinking is it really worth it to temporarily sacrifice a year for the ones who needs your support??? I really don't know.. I've made so many weak decisions in the past that lead me to this situation right now, I cannot do anything about it but at least I can try to do something that would lead me to the right track... I hope the Lord would give me enough wisdom and courage to decide what would be best for me and my family and the small family of my own... I don't want to commit the same mistakes again and let my loved ones suffer the consequences.. I cannot bear the pain of hurting any of them ever again specially my husband and my baby to come... I don't know at this point where to start.. all I know is I can manage everything if I entrust all my plans to the Lord.. for the Lords's plans are better than mine..
I just hope and pray that sooner me and my small family will be together and also my ultimate goal that my mom and dad can spend their time together as husband and wife since my dad worked as an OFW they never had a chance to spend time together laughing, crying, having petty quarrels as husband and wife... I know God knows my heart's desire and I know He can give it to me in His time.....