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I haven't been blogging. I was busy trying my luck, or should I say my path in writing short stories. I've started with something that I know, the lovestory of how me and my husband met. Of course It'll be boring if I don't give a twist and infuse some elements that is not really part of the real story. So it is just more of, "inspired by" but  damn! It is hard. I salute all the brilliant minds of all those writers! Their imagination is exceptional! It is easy to write based on experience, but writing based of something you just thought of is the bomb! Anyways, just updating... and now back to regular programing Ciao!

It's a holiday here in Australia. They are celebrating Anzac day. It is one big thing for them, showing their patriotic side. They  felt so thankful and proud to those troop who fought the battle in World War 1. I can feel the love they have for their country. I wish my own country does have that side, the love for country, if you love the country you would not let it go down hill. Anyways I am currently trying to write a romance story inspired by my own love story. How I met my husband. It will be a bit boring so I need to infuse some fictional events characters and plots. I salute all the writers out there. It is definitely not easy. It needs a creative imagination, and of course talent. Since I said I want to find what I am passionate about, I will try the things I wanted to do growing up. Good luck to me

Have you ever experience, trying out things you wanted to do. Starting it right, but you left yourself hanging in the middle, until you forget about it and try something new..? I don't know how to explain it, but I have that habit of trying out a hobby, starting it, being soooo into it, then due to unforseen circumstances or due to another interest, I just stopped, and leave it all behind. Hah! Soo hard to express it, let me just give you an example... I tried to do scrap booking when I was still single.. good thing I was able to at least finish a scrapbook of me and my then boyfriend (now husband) and gave it as a gift for our anniversary.. I promise to put some more photos after, but then I stopped. Fast forward to me having my first kid, here I go again, creating a scrap book, finishing half of it, then stopping. I don't know.. maybe I get too engage in other things, kdrama, american series or whatever. I also tried, planning, personal planner, kikki k stickers etcetera

I started my job as a homemaker, a full time mom, a housewife last April 23, 2016. That was the first day of me being jobless. I was praying for this moment for a long time, and God gave me a chance to fulfill this dream. But when it happened, I get this mixed emotions of being happy, sad and worried at the same time. We are having financial issues for a loooong time, and this is the only way out we could forsee, to move out of Singapore get our CPF pay for those tons of loans and debts we've had and start a new. Starting a new is really hard. For a first time housewife, it was a struggle. I was losing patience most of the time. With 3 boys, that are two toddlers and one with special needs. What would you expect. It was not easy but it was not all hardships, cause these boys are sooo sweet and fun to be with. But of course I had to deal with their tantrums and whining, and I had my own share of mood swings and lazy days. I am still learning alot of things. At time I felt

Today marks the first anniversary of my last day of work. I have been working ever since I graduated.  Before our graduation, I got an offer to work right away as technical support. I started working since then.. stopped for a year when I've had some issues with me getting pregnant with my first son, (which is the first reason why I started this blog.) Then went back to work when he turned 1 year old. I really love working, well not the job itself but the friends and the pay that comes with it! hahaha! I don't know why at this age, I still don't really know what I want to do with my career goals hehehe. Even if I graduated, I just took up that course not because I like it, but because I can't think of anything at that moment. Growing up, I've got tons of things I wanna be when I grow up.  I wanted to be a detective, a news anchor, a film editor, a book writer, a scientist, chemist, field reporter, theater actress and so much more.  Going into IT was not

“He’s not perfect. You aren’t either, and the two of you will never be perfect. But if he can make you laugh at least once, causes you to think twice, and if he admits to being human and making mistakes, hold onto him and give him the most you can. He isn’t going to quote poetry, he’s not thinking about you every moment, but he will give you a part of him that he knows you could break. Don’t hurt him, don’t change him, and don’t expect for more than he can give. Don’t analyze. Smile when he makes you happy, yell when he makes you mad, and miss him when he’s not there. Love hard when there is love to be had. Because perfect guys don’t exist, but there’s always one guy that is perfect for you.” - Bob Marley

Sometimes, I feel that I just exist and not living...  I know it is a fantasy to dream of a perfect world in an imperfect world.. Maybe that is why I love watching Korean dramas because in a way I can temporarily feel how it is like, living in reel world... I felt like I am trying but it is still not enough, I know, I  procrastinate at times.. but I get tired too. Don't I deserve to at least give myself a time to do my own thing?  Or am I not allowed since I need to do  1.... so on of things at home.. I think the reality of me not earning my own money is getting into me.. I felt I don't deserve to complain or feel bad because I don't contribute anything to this household.. I know that is not right... My pride is slowly getting into me..   breathe... 

I've started this blog way back 2007. My deets about myself is a bit different from before.. Here is the old one when I was 27 I think? so 10 years ago... I love to travel, (though I have no money to do that all the time hehehehe).. I love the beach...I can be VERY QUIET (not really shy) AT FIRST, but when you get to know the real me..i'll be your worst nightmare and your sweetest dream bwahahah!my friends would think im "mababaw" in all sense of the word ..simple things makes me happy, petty things can make me snap, i laugh at the corniest joke..simple things makes me cry..i dont look like one but im a crybaby!..i sometimes lose my mind and go nuts.. i think im crazy..I hate liars, but who doesn't I myself is guilty of lying somethings and I hate myself for that. i love to defend women...im transparent, what you see is what you get.. when im fed up it shows, when im happy it shows, when im sad it shows im not good at pretending what I feel. ive got lots o

Whew!  It seems like my blog was deactivated for a looooong period of time! Yup! I haven't been posting here... since 2015... I guess I've been too busy or preoccupied will a lot of things that I've forgotten to even write once in a while in this blog site.. There has been a lot of things going on in my life... We've made a big decision to move to Melbourne last year ( May 28 2016 to be exact) without a guaranteed security, because we will be moving via temporary resident visa ( working visa) granted to my husband's company.  Yes, will be transferred laterally in their Melbourne office. It was something we wanted, but we hesitated too. We are residents in Singapore (except for my 2 younger kids) so it is a big risk. Aside from the fact that I will stop working and will be a stay-at-home mother. For the very first time, I will have no income, except for the love I'll be receiving.. hehehe Well to make the long story short, we have already finish