My first born
I love all my kids.. I remember the first time I've had Corbin, it was not that of a happy news for me.. I was about to leave to work abroad that time.. but eventually I've accepted the fact that I'm having a baby.. despite all the struggles and sadness and disappointments.
When he was born prematurely I was very sad.. I thought that if this baby dies I would die too.. But thank God He gave us Corbin.
But God is not just good, He is a just God too. One of the consequences of my actions before led to Corbin being diagnosed with Autism Spectrum Disorder. It broke my heart.. but dealt with it and still fighting and dealing with this battle day by day. There are times I want to give up.. but I love him so much to do that. Sometimes because I love him dearly I felt frustrated for the things he cannot understand. We've been struggling and batlling for 4 years now. Still praying for breakthrough for him. He'll be 7 soon..
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