Heart broken

I'm sooo heart broken.. I let my emotions control me... I got pissed and impatient and hurt my first born baby... And I hate myself for that.. knowing his condition and needs... I still manage to hurt him because of to much anger.. I felt like cold water was poured over me and I ran and hug him tightly and cried. I said sorry several times and I told him I love him.. I love you my son I do.. Sooo much.. but sometimes this mom gets to cranky and impatient please forgive mommy.. It breaks my heart to see you hurt much more knowing I am the reason why you're hurting.. I know you are still young but when you can understand and read.. know that I love you very very much.. You and your brothers are my life line.. May God help mommy to control her temper.. 

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