My side of story

Haven't write on this blog for sometime. I just wanted to share some blessings I've had these past few weeks. I know it has been sometime that I didn't write anything special on this blog.

Today is my son's 2nd month birthday. On the contrary today is the month I would be expecting him to arrive. But due to some circumstances beyond my control, he was born 2 months earlier than expected.

We've been through alot lately. I would say we were down and out because of the unexpected delivery of my baby who was born last June 9, 2007 via ceasarian section, due to some complications on my pregnancy.. I was diagnose to be preeclamptic.

Alot of my friends wonder what had happened to me these past few month, others know about it, some of them does have an idea, but still clueless. Others thought I am in Canada already. I guess that was the original plan.. however a few people know I was married last December 11, 2006. I've decided to get married before going abroad since I was thinking it would take sometime before I come back, that decision I wouldn't say was right or wrong, some say its wrong since I kept it a secret to my family, some says it's meant to be. I guess its all in the past and I have to take a forward step now. I don't want to discuss in detailed the things that happened to me after that abrupt decision.

January 6, 2007, I've confirmed that I would be having a baby. Not everyone knows I was married including my family so I kept it to myself and my husband at first.. but as everyone says "walang lihim na di nabubunyag". My Canadian working visa arrived January 20, 2007 and we were scheduled to leave March 22 2007. Upon hearing this news, another sudden plan came up to me.. I went to singapore without telling my mom about it.. ( what a bad girl!... I know... im just too scared of her..) To make the long story short, they've discovered everything, my mom declared world war one.. and the rest is history.

I am an emotional person specially when it comes to my family. I was emotionally stress and little did I know my baby was affected as well. On the 28wk of my pregnancy, that's the time I discovered, I'm pre eclamptic.. high risk.. I hated the singaporean OB during that time.. kasi grabe na saka nya sinabi.. I never skip a monthly prenatal.. waaaaaaaaaaaaah... I immediately went back to the Philippines with my hubby... everything's ok with my mom already as long as I'd still go to canada after giving birth.

My bambino, (italian word for baby boy) weighs only 731grams the time I delivered him, he was too small for his age, he is 28 weeks old thus his weight should be around 1000 grams. That's the reason he was taken out of my womb 2 months earlier, because he no longer grows inside me and due to my high in diastolic blood pressure. I don't care if the doctors says the chance of survival is just 35%.. he was really small and frail but we never gave up on him. We trusted God that he will make him well, I know if its God's will he will make it happen. We prayed without seizing... and He made it happen. Right now my son is still in the hospital but he is no longer in critical condition. He weighs 1528 grams equivalent to 3.3lbs and he made be released early next week. Now its money we are having problems with... but I know God will provide... and its just money... what matters most is our bambino.

We started our family life with a heavy burden but I know these trials would make us more stronger. I know we are down and out right now but still the only we can go is up.. so I'm still trusting the Lord that He will help us overcome our finacial difficulties right now.

You may think its a long blog, but this was just a summary of what happened to me for the past 8 months.

That's my side of story...

The picture here was the latest photo of my bambi last august 04. By the way his name is James Corbin..

Now the blessings I was referring too was about the improvement on my baby. He's no longer in the incubator and he is completely well. I am waiting for the doctor's advise for him to be discharged he has been inside the NICU ( neonatal intensive care unit) since he was born and now is the time I can take care of him on my own. He struggles for his live and I don't want to put that to waste that is why I'm preparing everything to make sure he will be comfortable inside the house and he will be well taken care of.. God be with me....