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It's been awhile since I've visited my blogsite.. my very first blogger site.  I've been busy and lazy, being pregnant, working mom. I'm almost full term now. Tomorrow is my last day to work for 2012. Thank God for all the working days you've assisted and helped me specially during my pregnant days. I am so thankful that I've reached this stage. I remember this never happened before with my first son, Corbin. I am having a baby boy again, (I was hoping for a baby girl so badly, but not God's will) we decided to name him Josef Caleb, we based it on the character and meaning of the name(both biblical). I've had the dreaded stretch marks.... waaaaaaaaaah I havent had this before with Corbin since I didnt reach this stage. I can feel heaviness and I've gain a lot!! This is the heaviest weight I've had since birth.. literally! hahaha Still I thank God that me and my son are both healthy. I am a bit anxious and scared, since I will be trying V

I haven't been blogging to this or to my beauty blog. I'm way past my difficult period of my pregnancy, the vomiting and a bit of giddiness have been gone. However from time to time I can still have periods of weird taste buds and a bit of sensitivity to smell until now. I am currently 19 weeks pregnant and I can feel my baby moving inside my womb already, although its not that visible but inside me, I can feel it. The gender of my baby is still unknown. We tried to check it from last time's check up but we failed to see it. I am still hoping and praying the baby is a girl!! We've prayed for a girl. We have prepared a name for it too. I am also praying for a healthy baby, and normal delivery.  God bless us all!

I haven't been posting any updates on my blog for awhile. I've been busy and lazy at the same time. I am currently 11 weeks and 5 days as per my pregnancy calculator. Yes, we are expecting another bundle of joy after 5 years. Corbin just turned 5 last June 9. Its been a 5 year gap that is why my body doesnt seem to adapt well with my pregnancy. When I was pregnant with Corbin I didn't have nauseous feeling or any weird taste bud.. its a bit normal back then, but now its quite different, I feel tired and restless and super lazy and vomiting from time to time.. This past few weeks is a bit lesser but the back and muscle pain are still there. We are planning to have a baby girl, that is what we've prayed for while trying to conceive. We are claiming its going to be a baby girl, a healthy normal baby girl Godwilling. So far I've missed trying to do makeup with different looks. I am so lazy to do such things and much more I am so lazy to go to work. But I dont have a

I know we're been tight recently but I can't resist the half the price shipping charge so I gave in.. I've been planning to buy sleek makeup products for quite sometime and this year it happened. I was surprised it arrived after around 10 days normally Sigma and coastal scents took me almost a month or so.. Anyways aside from that its IT Show in Singapore... I've decided to buy a camera to replace my youngest brother's broken cam.. i think its worth the prize because of a tiny freebies that came with it and its much better than his old camera.. I want to have the Sony Tx10 but i've controlled myself.. there will be another IT show come September.. i'll be debt-free by then.. Godwilling!

Its March already!! The last month for the first quarter of the year! Well, Ferbuary felt so long for me because of dry season (financially hehehe) Anyways Im claming March would be a better year for me and my family. I haven't had anything exciting going on recently except our 3 try to have a baby. It would be hard since my Dad is in the same room as ours so privacy is very slim and even though I have regular period I have to make sure he is out of the house when we want to try it out hahaha... slim chance!! But I've been praying for a baby girl so we will still keep on trying and then wait for God's perfect time hopefully not too long... hehehe

Its just a few days left for February but I feel like its the longest month I've had.... because I don't have money anymore that's it. Well I mean my money hasn't arrived yet... I am trying my best to start the year in a positive outlook with a full trust in God. Its truly hard for me specially if here and there you'd be hearing all sorts of problems within my immediate family. I wanted to help out in the best I can but my hands are tied right now. January is a whirlwind.. February is the driest season (hopefully for the whole year). I just hope and pray that we started below and would end up above by the year ends. I am still claiming more blessings to come our way.. with my family and our immediate family.. Well who doesn't struggle anyways? Financial issues, relationships, work related, we all have something to share but the good thing is it will end. I just lean on God since He is the only one who can help. I hope and pray my brother and big brother'

2012.. im claiming much better year than the roller coaster ride we've had last year... Expecting a blessing and to be able to either wipe or lessen my credits hehehe

Last night I snapped out. I was so frustrated with the way my son is behaving. He was fine for the last 2 weeks I have been taking care of him. The moment his grandfather arrives he went back to his old self. I don't know why but perhaps because he knew that he can control his Lolo.I got fed up I snapped at Corbs and I snapped at my dad. I was soo frustrated I cried so hard and I cried to the Lord to help me get through this, to help me handle this situation. Advises are here and there but its really true that you would never know how hard it is unless you've experienced it. I was sooo mad at myself for feeling that way. Above all this I've seen videos of kids who have autism who are teens now and they are just doing fine. I guess I have to be more positive and more trusting and have more faith to God and to my son. I love you Corbin!